Graduation

Today my "baby" graduated middle school, and two days ago when I saw Megan she essentially "graduated" me from my sessions. She said that, because my next step is step 10, I probably don't need to see her any more. We both agreed that I'd keep her on speed dial, just in case.

My plan is to spend the next month or two watching more videos and visiting the pet stores and looking through the glass. When I'm completely anxiety free (and I'd say I'm about 80% anxiety free at this point) I'll find someone who will let me hold a mouse or rat and I'll do one final session with Megan to share my progress.

I'm so happy with where things are. Last week as I was going to my car I saw a little dead shrew, and normally I'd have been scared to see it AND upset that one was in my neighbourhood. I was ok. Michelle then confessed that Princess, our neighbourhood cat, buried three other shrews near our car since we've been in this house. I was ok. :)

Today, I read a post on Facebook from a friend who talked about her spider phobia. I've shared Megan's info with her, and I'm excited to  hear about her progress, too. :)

Pet Store Time

So I have been watching videos like a boss, and the family was out running errands and Michelle suggested, as she usually does, that we go into the pet store. While I was there I was thinking that I might walk over by the mice, and as I was thinking it Michelle asked if I thought I was ready. I guess that could be seen as a sign. I went over, and I saw a white rat or mouse, I'm not sure. White is my least favorite, so I'm glad I saw it. A few days later we were at the mall and I went in the pet store and saw mice. I was ok. I was right up at the glass, and I even snapped a few pictures. I think that's considered steps 7, 8 and 9. :)

Next up, as we all know, is holding a mouse or rat. Crazy.